trust

Life can often be a rollercoaster and I have this human pull to allow myself to emotionally collapse lately. God is really God. He has truly lifted my soul and told me He is taking care of me. I don't know how or when things will change.
I have been on this journey the past three and a half years and am running out of steam. I don't deserve it but I know He is holding me in His arms this very moment. When I feel no one understands the depth of my emotion I try to hold it in- then He swoops in. He hears my cries and embraces me. Part of me wants to share this journey with everyone just to get it off my shoulders but another part tells me to protect myself from comments of people's uneducated opinions.
Another area of concern has been finances. In this economy- that is understandable. I typically worry about money somewhat. Right now, I have a strong sense God will be faithful and will make a way. I want to take a step of faith with the foot I tattooed "faith" on and let God lead me across the unsteady water. Whenever I feel the pull to allow my human emotions to pull me down the only strength I need is to look in His eyes.