suspended in time and space

Have you ever felt like you are in a place in life where you just don’t know where you are going? I feel suspended in time and space with so many optional directions and pathways it’s unnerving. I have felt this in my life before however what is unusual about this time around is a feeling of marked slowness. That is unusual for me. I do not feel the need to make a quick decision, take control and make things happen now-quick-fast. I told God He was in control and I would only make decisions based on what He led me towards. I want only to be in His will. What a difference this has made. I can breathe a little more deeply and freely. I can hear His voice more clearly in lieu of listening to my own brain rattling around every possible directions outcome. Having attempted in the past to lay my future at His feet, I only grabbed it again and ran away hoping God would not notice. He did notice. I am sure He shook His head and said, “if she would only let me take care of her.” I am tired of running away with it and trying to make my own way with while my head is spinning. Here ya go Jesus- please take care of me here. I’ll let you take it this time.

-Be still and know that I am God.
- Psalm 18:35-37
- Psalm 119:34-36

PS_ the pic is of a girl actually named rachel bowman. (rachelbowman.net)