perseverance

I can sit around and plan my life all day long but it would be a waste of time. Today is one of those days I feel less hope in my life than normal. I have faith but there is a twinge of doubt and I am not showing much grace to my situation right now. I am reacting only to how I feel this very moment. My insecurity tells me this is all my fault and I deserve this but my God tells me He loves me and has something up His sleeve just for me. I can’t see that right now and am having a hard time accepting His promises for me when all I hear is setback after setback. Covering this thing with grace has forced some serious digging and I sometimes feel I can’t find enough to cover the thorn.

James 1 says “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. If any of you lacks wisdom, he should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to him. But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind.”

Okay God- you are right…again. ;-) I surrender to You.