change, change will do you good....

ch ch ch change, change will do you good.... (the song- haha)

Change really streches me sometimes! Wow! It's one of those bittersweet feelings.
My husband preached his first sermon in the morning this past Sunday. We have a church attendance of an average of about 1400 on a Sunday morning- so to me that would scare my pants off!! He has preached Sunday evenings several times. He leads praise and worship regularly as well- but I was still suprised at how calm he was Sunday. People commented on what a great job he did- and I may be blind but I really believe they were sincere. He made me laugh, made me think, I was so proud of where God has taken him while he was standing up there. What a remarkable man I have married and had the chance to grow with. I am humbled by the direction God is taking our lives together.

There is a reason I entitled this post change. Ever feel like there is just a point in life where things are starting to change? I just feel in my gut that things are starting to change for the Bowmans. Its definitly good change- but not being able to see past the horizon is a little nerve wracking. Paul has been getting busier with his job/people at church and spending a lot of time studying and reading for his masters. This has really opened up some alone time for me. I don't want to waste it watching tv or just slaving away at house stuff like I always do. I can't just succomb to the feeling of lonliness or boredom that is so easy. I feel God brewing something- calling me to Himself during this time of life. I know we will make a better team if I am growing as he is. Answering His call little by little has been so impactful in my everyday life it makes my soul feel like its smiling. Its like a breath of fresh air. I know God has something in store and I am so excited but I don't know what is going to happen. I have faith He is in control. Don't get me wrong- I still struggle and have my days but having that sparkle of hope and love from God is a magnificent blessing. I am humbled by His detailed plan for my little life that is filled with such great love and exhuberence. I don't understand or deserve it- but am so unbelievably thankful.

So in short, God is stirring up change in our life and simply deciding to run with it and follow His leading starting with the small things has opened a door to let the fresh air in. One door of many I pray. Some doors are easier to open than others....What door will you allow God to pry open?

My thoughts may not always flow and words may not always sound poetic- but this is just my crazy mind processing... :-)